He's coming home!!

I know I have said I'm not going to get real personal about my family on the blog but this is worth mentioning. Scott has been in Cuba on a mission trip and is coming home today. He landed in Miami a while ago with a long lay over in Dallas. The reason why I'm talking about this is because for years if he went on a trip I didn't really miss him because of our past struggles. I have come a long way in forgiveness!! I have missed him so much and when he called from Miami, I was in his office working and I saw his name on caller id. I just screamed and was so happy to talk to him. We laughed and shared how much we missed each other. We are finally at a very good place and I'm thrilled. He is the joy of my life and my very best friend. He makes me laugh, he protects me, he's my security, he is extremely compassionate, transparent, he goes way beyond to make sure others are taken care of who are less fortunate and he's all boy.

Marriage is work and most likely we will hurt the other deeply. None of what we have been through I would take back. Through the process I have learned so much about myself. I've learned to choose my battles, I'm much more relaxed, less judgemental, I laugh a lot at myself. I'm thankful to my Heavenly Father that He has helped me weather the storm. For the longest time I would wish for the next year because I thought this would be easier to deal with. It took me learning to forgive so I could have peace and a great marriage.

I love you Scott and can't wait to hear on the wonderful things you experienced!!

I've been busy but I'm back!!

Hello all, did you miss me!! It's been crazy but also a blessing with lots of activities on the weekends. On top of all that, my computer was hit with lots of viruses soooooooooooo!!

First, I want to mention the wonderful weekend Scott and I had several weekend agos. We have been through a lot the last 5 years and we haven't had much time just to spend together. Honestly, I didn't want to spend much time with him. Sounds harsh I know but I'm all about being real. We have been on a super long journey or some would say roller coaster. I have missed just laughing with him and enjoying being in his presense. It was totally refreshing and we laughed all weekend. I believe we are finally at a great place.

Now, I had the great pleasure of going to the Women of Faith conference with a great friend of mine along with a girlfriend of hers. It was AMAZING!! The speakers were incredible and very transparent which I always identify with. And then there was the singers, Steven Curtis Chapman and Nicole C Mullins. Oh my gosh, with both singers, there was not a dry eye in the house for very different reasons. I so enjoyed spending time with my friends as I got to learn more about them and them sharing their past and their walk with the Lord. During the conference, so many of the ladies who spoke, you could just tell they LOVED the Lord. They were just bright, shining, full of joy, humble and beautiful. I felt very challenged and knew the Lord was speaking directly to me. I want to be that shining star as each of them were to me. I want to inspire others and step up. I love the Lord and He is helped me on this long journey. I love who I am today and I need to show it more.

Now, I'm going to touch on "The Battlefield of the Mind":

Positive Minds Produce positive lives!! Negative Minds Produce negative lives. Positive thoughts are always full of faith and hope. Negative thoughts are always full of fear and doubt.

Ok, just think about that, seems pretty simple now doesn't it. I grew up in a negative environment and it just seemed normal to be negative. Actually, I didn't even notice I was being negative because that's all I was around. Thankfully, I broke from that, praise God!!! Fear is very controlling and I'm still very challenged there. I don't want to pass this onto my girls so they end up in bondage for years like myself.

I realize this is short but now that I'm back in the loop, I will post way more often. And Angie, if you read this, I'm always here for you!!! I love you bunches and any time you need to talk, vent or whatever, don't hesitate to call. Some day I'm going to get a new phone so I won't hang up on you...heehee!! Seriously, we really can't wait to see you in December! Tell Mindy I love her too!!